On Monday, I start a new treatment programme. I’m stuck in the action-maintenance-relapse cycle which ultimately leaves me in a hideous ‘pre-contemplation’ limbo.
I want change to happen. It’s hard. It’s always hard, but this time I want to make it work. The recovery process is long and arduous and consuming and exhausting and I’m still trying to convince myself that it’s worth it.
My doctor told me that he doesn’t know how I’m still alive. I never want to hear my own mortality questioned again.
. Australian boy. Expat living in England. My name is Buck
I'm a social work student. I haven't had a regular sleeping pattern since I was 7. I listen to Bright Eyes, a lot. I like to go to the movies by myself in the day time, I like Scotch, Ale, Tea, Literature, Doctor Who, The Rabbitohs, Pokemon, Slytherin, Night time, British murder mysteries and spicy food.